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[09 Aug 2002|08:37pm] |
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I have been so busy, I am terribly terribly sorry for not updating more. I have so much going on..and with the planning of the wedding and stuff..it's just a lot to deal with.
I'll be around more, I promise.
I need icons, if anyone feels like being generous..mine are so bad.
<< Tom
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[30 Jul 2002|02:07pm] |
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stretch princess - freakshow |
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Wow...I really need to stop doing other stuff, and start coming online more. After I asked Shakira to marry me..and even before..I've been so busy.
I've been moving back and forth between Hawaii and New York City, trying to avoid some...people. I also have been packing up most of my stuff from Lexi and I's apartment. I can still remember our first night here....it was a lot of fun. Then again, I look out the window, and I remember some things that happened in this apartment...::looks around, remembering everything he was talking about::
I guess letting go of things, is a way to let your heart go..and live again. I held on for far too long, and I was only forcing it, to keep myself above the water line. I guess you could say, I had been drowning for sometime...until my mother passed away. God, rest her soul...so much has changed, for the good..and the bad...I guess...life just goes on. We may not always approve, but in the end...it all works out.
When I get my stuff down to Hawaii, I'm going to have to just leave all of it in boxes, because I need to fly right up to Canada to finish filming some more eposides of Smallville, which by the way, is now being aired on not only Tuesday, but on Mondays as well. ::smiles::
That's my big update for now...so I guess it's my turn to go lurk for a while...
<< Tom
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[22 Jul 2002|03:32pm] |
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I asked Shakira to marry me. I love her, and the world....is perfect again. -sighs and walks away-
I'll be around more, I'm sorry I haven't been. I've been filming too much!!
- Tom
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[17 Jul 2002|08:09am] |
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My wedding day was suppose to be this Friday.............
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[11 Jul 2002|08:03pm] |
Wow. I haven't been around in a while. I've been filming, and I spent sometime with Michael, seeing it was recently his birthday. Him and Ally are together, which is great news. He hasn't been around much, he's been back and forth with filming and getting settled in London! But,he's enjoying himself, which is great.
I'm feeling a lot better too, after my mom and all. I know, it's a drawn out subject, this is where it ends. My mom dying will always be apart of my life, as well as....other stuff. And July 19th is approaching, I don't know how I'm going to take that day..seeing that's the day Katie and I were suppose to be married. It's a big piece of my heart that aches when I think about it, but, just like my mom, I'll move on. I mean, I am with Shakira. And I love her, a lot. We've known each other for so long, that everything with us is like magic.
I love her, and I am going to give her the world she's never dreamed off!
<< Tom
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[09 Jul 2002|08:03am] |
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Wow. So much has been going on, life after death, I mean. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, and that everything is going to work out. Everything always works out in the end, as Shakira told me once.
So, my life is moving on, spinning around me, and I can barely catch my breath, but I'm holding on. I still have memories, you know, of my mom, of Katie, the usual stuff. I'd be lieing if I said I didn't miss her..-shrugs- but I'm doing fine. Shakira and I are doing wonderful, as one, and as individuals.
I have changed so much, my mind, and body, my heart even. It seems to beat differently. But...-sighs- It's alright, everything's alright.
<< Tom
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[02 Jul 2002|04:35pm] |
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Course of Nature:: caught in the sun |
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I know I haven't been around very much, not very much since my mother passed on, the whole Katie and I thing, and then me jumping on a plane and flying out to Hawaii...to be with Shakira...
-nods- I guess it's time I told everyone....I'm buying this apartment in Hawaii, and I'm moving out of Lexi's place. I'm going to be back and forth between LA and Hawaii. Plus......Shakira and I...are together.
Alright..enough said. More soon.
<< Tom
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[27 Jun 2002|07:57pm] |
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-sighs- I'm still in Hawaii. And I read Jas' update..I guess she told everyone that she's not actually in Hawaii with me. The reason I didn't tell everyone who I was really with while I'm in Hawaii, is because I don't want people jumping to conclusions. So...-frowns and shrugs- I might as well tell everyone I'm down here with Shakira Ripoll, an old old old friend of mine. We met a long time ago when she was huge in the spanish scene. She's had a crazy life now that she's so big here, in the English life -laughs-...That's why I haven't mentioned her. She's a very good friend of mine, and she called me up yesterday and asked if I would like to go to Hawaii and spend a few weeks down there. And I figured, hell, why not. My life is a total mess, might as well piece it together in Hawaii...
So I guess, my man reason for posting is I want everyone to welcome ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) shakira_m to PSA, I convinced her to get a journal. She's a sweetheart..be nice
<< Tom
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[26 Jun 2002|11:12am] |
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-sigh-
Well, I'm in Hawaii. Where know one knows my secrets, know one knows I was engaged, no one knows any of it. I rented out a cabin here, it's literally right on the beach. I didn't come here alone, I have an old friend of mine with me. I hope she's happy here, after all, she's here for me when I need her.
-frowns- I keep thinking back to yesterday, and my heart...-sighs heavily- can't take it. It's true, I mean...how can I lose the person I love most in the world, and then give up the other one? -shrugs- Maybe I'm bein a stubborn ass-hole,..but haven't you ever tried to find yourself? I mean, the biggest, most horrible thing just happened, and it happened when I was going to tell my mother I had bought her a place in New York City, so she could be close by. I mean..I was to get married in two weeks, and the only person I needed more then anything can't be there. Her and Katie didn't even get to meet....and that got me thinking....maybe Katie and I do love each other...but maybe it wasn't meant to be. -sighs and looks around- I mean, my mother loved Katie, through the stories I told her..but she didn't truly know her. And that seems like it's some kind of sign that I need to acknowledge. I mean....my mother loved Katie for one sole purpose..the fact that I loved her. I mean, Katie knows I love her...but..-shrugs- I look at my life, and I need more meaning then that. My heart was ripped from me, and the only people to pick up those pieces, were Jas and Janie. Lexi couldn't be there, but she was flying out that night..she was alittle late, but atleast her heart was here. My mom loved Jas and Lexi, she truly did.....
Maybe....-shakes head- Nah,...well..I'm going to go down to the beach and think for a few hours...I'll leave you all with something a good friend of mine told me, and has caught my attention...I'm trying to understand the meaning....
Keep your head up and know that things are sometimes meant to happen like that even if you it doesn't seem right. I really hope you can find love all over again and know that your mom is up in heaven only wanting you to be happy....
<< Tom
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[25 Jun 2002|06:04pm] |
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My mother.....is gone. My fiance',....gone. The wedding, is off. I realized, my soul isn't my soul anymore..and I cant live for everyone else anymore. I'm living for myself...Katie, you know how I feel. I'm sorry. Jas, I love you. Janie, you too.
I'm going to hawaii...I'll be around...maybe.
<< Tom
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[24 Jun 2002|08:15pm] |
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...........I love you, Katie.
Alright, that's my update. -frowns and walks away, tears in his eyes-
Tom
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| LEXI!! |
[23 Jun 2002|03:59pm] |
Alexis Bledel!! Just so you know, just because your my best friend and I love you oh so much, Katie and I postponed the wedding back a week. July 19th, happy now?
Plus, Katie and I agreed on a spot for the wedding, its called Sunnyvalle Beach, and the place is gorgeous. We wanted an outside wedding, so we agreed on the beach. We also asked Britney to sing at the wedding. We want her to sing a duet with Dan Miller, so hopefully he'll agree and that will be out of the way!! -smiles- We also asked Avril to sing at the reception, and we want John Mayer to sing too. If he ever comes on -laughs-, we would like them both to sing. Seeing Katie and I are both big fans of Mr. Mayer, we thought it would make it an enjoyable night. So, John and Dan, if you guys are reading this, get back to one of us so we know if your up to it, okay?! -smiles- Thanks
And, I also want to ask Jayce if he would like to be the third best man, on my half of the party. I have Trevor and Mike, and I would like you to be a best man. Always there when I need a guy to talk too!!! You up to it?
( our wedding )
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[22 Jun 2002|08:00pm] |
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where would we be without a little love, we cant get by without a little love, everybody needs a little bit of love sometimes
I love that song, it's by the Getaway People, incase you all want to get online and look for it. Just ask me, I'll let ya know.
So....-sighs- I don't know what to say anymore. I don't really update anymore, either. Obviously. -shrugs- I don't really know why. Well...-laughs- Maybe I do know what. It's been my mother. She's very ill, and doesn't appear to be getting much better. I've been having a rough two weeks, and I can honestly say I didn't think I would want to make it. But...-laughs- I have Katie by my side, my great friend Michael around when I need him, and the biggest bottle of Jack Daniel's you've ever seen -smirks- I'm getting better though. The vomitting and dizziness has gone away -smiles-
Well, Katie and I set a wedding date...it's July 12th. [problem.....-dies- ash!]
So...that's my update. I'll be around, as soon as my life gets it ass in order
<< Tom
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[16 Jun 2002|04:41pm] |
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Darren Hayes:: I knew I loved you |
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I'm better now... Katie is flying to L.A to be with me, and we're going to dinner with Kelly and Michael.... You guys are too much.
I'm sorry to everyone, if I've been shady...
And, thank you very much to Jas* for showing me how to make this journal a little more unique. I had to get rid of the black..it was consuming me...
and Katie, your the one I need, the one I love, the one I want to be with forever
<< Tom
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[16 Jun 2002|03:43pm] |
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whitney//mariah :: when you believe |
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Why should I care? You weren't there when I was scared, I was so alone..
<< Tom
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[14 Jun 2002|04:18pm] |
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A.L.I.V.E
I am alive...I just.....need some time......some Tom Time....
sorry, Katie..i love you...
Tom
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